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 "Courage is the solution to despair, reason provides no answers. I can't know what the future will bring; we have to choose despite uncertainty. Wisdom is holding two contradictory truths in our mind, simultaneously, Hope and despair.  A life without despair is a life without hope. Holding these two ideas in our head is life itself." (First Reformed, 2017)

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